i saw you in a dream last night
mixed in between the fencing and dancing and all those other little things
you were sitting next to me
and simply took my hand
i thought, what should i do?
and didn't run away
another mistake, i knew i made
but i couldn't let you go
when things were done
we'd kissed and hugged
and everything was fine,
but only for a time
then i awoke
a little scared
knowing exactly what it meant
"don't you dare,
even think,
because i know just what you'll do"
it's so tempting
so very tempting
to do what i know i want
but if i do
i know where i'll be
in six or seven months
apart from you
broken again
ha
im scared and terrified of the person im afraid that ive become
the need to help
the need to fix
where did it all come from?
i didnt used to be this way
once, i was content to simply ignore it
deal with my own stuff
by myself
not worry about others
and let them do the same
but now, ive changed
i see them every day
people hurting
people breaking
i want to reach out
and help them be okay
but i cant
im terrified ill make things worse
theyre people i dont even know that well
i see them
sitting alone in a corner
that look of pain
i know too well
people in their room
i never knew how nice it was to hold someone's hand
until i held yours
i never knew how much you could miss someone
until you took a trip
i never knew how much it meant to have someone to talk to
until i talked to you
i never knew how nice it was to hold someone
until i held you
i never knew how much someone could mean to me
until you meant the world to me
i never knew how nice it could be to snuggle
until i did it with you
i never knew how foolish i could be
to fall in love with someone like you
i never knew how blind i could be
and not see the true you
i never knew how much i could hurt
until i read things from you
i never
i never knew how nice it was to hold someone's hand
until i held yours
i never knew how much you could miss someone
until you took a trip
i never knew how much it meant to have someone to talk to
until i talked to you
i never knew how nice it was to hold someone
until i held you
i never knew how much someone could mean to me
until you meant the world to me
i never knew how nice it could be to snuggle
until i did it with you
i never knew how foolish i could be
to fall in love with someone like you
i never knew how blind i could be
and not see the true you
i never knew how much i could hurt
until i read things from you
i never
im scared and terrified of the person im afraid that ive become
the need to help
the need to fix
where did it all come from?
i didnt used to be this way
once, i was content to simply ignore it
deal with my own stuff
by myself
not worry about others
and let them do the same
but now, ive changed
i see them every day
people hurting
people breaking
i want to reach out
and help them be okay
but i cant
im terrified ill make things worse
theyre people i dont even know that well
i see them
sitting alone in a corner
that look of pain
i know too well
people in their room
i saw you in a dream last night
mixed in between the fencing and dancing and all those other little things
you were sitting next to me
and simply took my hand
i thought, what should i do?
and didn't run away
another mistake, i knew i made
but i couldn't let you go
when things were done
we'd kissed and hugged
and everything was fine,
but only for a time
then i awoke
a little scared
knowing exactly what it meant
"don't you dare,
even think,
because i know just what you'll do"
it's so tempting
so very tempting
to do what i know i want
but if i do
i know where i'll be
in six or seven months
apart from you
broken again
ha
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